Wednesday 1 January 2014

Kinda Expected Delays

Due to technical difficulties (aka, me not having a clue what I’m doing) my plans of having My Kevin available today.
But, thanks to me sister and brother-in-law I have a cover for the book.
Yeah!!
 

 
 
Final Excerpt
 
Kevin had cornered him after school. It had been two days of not seeing him for more than he had to, he’d kept his distance, which, of course, Kevin was going to notice and worry about.
     Kevin had caught him behind the head with one hand, trapping him; making sure Jimmy couldn’t look away. Couldn’t lie when he asked, “What’s wrong?”
     It had been the look in his eyes more than the anything that had made Jimmy crumble, but before he’d opened his mouth, Kevin had sighed, taken his hand away and looked out into the distance.
     “It’s ‘bout you kissing Kate, isn’t it?”
     Jimmy had found it painful when he swallowed. “Yeah, sorta.”
     Kevin sighed again, the sound had made Jimmy’s eyes prick up, but he wasn’t really sure he could explain why.
     “You like it? You want to date her?”
     Jimmy felt his face heat, “no—um, yeah, but no.”
     Kevin had smiled. A Smile at something that wasn’t really funny, and yet he just couldn’t seem to completely understand himself. Jimmy had a habit of making him do that, sometimes probably  because he liked that look on Kevin.
     “You don’t want to date her?”
     “No.” Jimmy was so sure of that fact that the words had come out maybe before Kevin had finished his question. No, he had no desire to date Kate. He had no desire for dating anymore. No one but Kevin did anything for him. And that was the problem wasn’t it? He didn’t want anyone but Kevin, and after that kiss, something had clicked inside his body. Since then he hadn’t been able to think about anyone else but Kevin in that way, no matter how hard he’d try to do otherwise.
     Did that make any more sense out loud, than it had in his head? He wasn’t sure, but the principle of it all was, his sexual awakening had hit him hard in the nuts, and the only thing that was able to sooth him, was Kevin.
     It was annoying. It pissed him off. And Jimmy seemed to hate everything about it, except Kevin. He wasn’t sure if he could ever actually hate Kevin. Not for anything.
      Kevin’s lips twitched again, this time in a real, happy, smile, that had Jimmy’s knees weakened making his legs shift, and his mind dumping in the gutter with all the other thoughts that had his balls tingling.
     “Did you not like the kiss?”
     Jimmy’s face felt hotter than it had before, his skin seemed to tighten around his chest, fear, making his next breath in pull a little. “It was okay.”
     “Okay,” Kevin laughed, “what was wrong with it?”
     “Um...” Yeah, Jimmy, what was wrong with it? He only had one word: Kevin. Everything came back to fucking Kevin. Kevin this and Kevin that. He was starting to sweat under his clothes. His heart had picked up, and it was starting to make his mind turn and run. He didn’t know what he was meant to say. Didn’t know what he wasn’t meant to say. He didn’t know anything anymore. Only that he didn’t want to lose Kevin, and he just knew, from the bottom of his toes, that this one moment was going to be when everything changed.
     He wasn’t thinking about which way it was going to go. He had only one thought, and that was Kevin, so Jimmy didn’t understand why the voices still mocked and groaned and bitched inside his head.
 
 
So, I’m hoping to have this out sometime in the next week.

Yearly Recap & Resolutions

So, 2013 wasn’t all that interesting for me… yeah I lie
 
I got published.
Yeah, it wasn’t with a cover and paper, but a contract and four book edited and read to go for the next year.
 
I am so looking forward to 2014 that I’m making myself sick.
Really, people, starting out as an author is scary as shit, and from things I’ve heard it doesn’t get all that much better, but I think if it did, then you need to think about what’s going on around you.
 
I’m looking forward to entering the world.
I’m looking forward to see what everyone thinks of me and my writing, and I hope that I don’t fuck it all up by insulting people without noticing I’m doing it (really people I’m horrid at most everything that’s being friendly and making friends. Though I do make them, it’s just normally a rocky start. That I so hope doesn’t happen this way, because it’s hard to fix things when the person can’t get away from me. Ha, I’m not joking either)
 
So, 2014 is when I become bona-fide with my name graphitised a book cover.
I’m so fucking excited that I can’t stop swearing and dancing and stopping every few minutes to get my need to vomited under control.
I’m better than that, I don’t vomit because of nerves (*eyes shift away*)
 
 Anyway, I’m pretty sure that the first book published by eXtasybooks comes out on January 15, but I’m not a hundred percent sure, I guess I’ll find out when we get a little closer. I’m not sure; I’ve never done this before, so….
 
But more importantly, I have send off my short story to Harmony Ink for their ‘first time’ anthology, and I’m not sure if the story will actually fit, or work, or is what they are looking for, but I got my ‘receipt’ email from them, and I’ll find out early March.
But mostly, I’ve decided that if the short story isn’t what they are looking for, I’m actually going to write out a novella for this book, give me my first Coming Out story. because I really like the YA nature as well as the back story and I think it would make a good novella if I write it from when they first meet and end it, well, the exact same way.
But well wait and see.
 
So I’m babbling, sorry, but I’m nervous about today, which I’ll get to later
 
So, my resolutions this year are to keep things simple.
I know it’s not really one, but my mum is going to start Chemo in the start of Feb, if not earlier, which is the first step to all this and it’s not going to be a stress free real life, so I’m not going to add, unnecessarily to my working life.
 
There’s not point me having a mental breakdown the first year into being an author. There’s no point stressing myself out. And there’s less of one when my mind in delicate as it is.
 
Huh, maybe this will help me get my mental health onto Medicare…
Things to ponder.
 
So, this avo, I’m going to go down to my sisters and we are going to publish a short story of mine.
Everything is ready, I’ll put up the cover when I get my hands on it, so you can all have a look, but it’s an American company and I really want to start my publishing year as 2014. I know it’s weird, but publishing it today, being the first to me, and having it register that way, wonted happen, no matter how much I wish it, so I’ll publish it bout 7:30pm and that will make it New Year’s day for everyone (I’m pretty sure)
 
Anyway, there you have it.
Sorry ‘bout the babble.
 
Enjoy your night if you haven’t already, and those who have, I hope it was spectacular.